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Name: James
Country: United States
State: New York
Gender: Male
Interests: Sleeping, Drinking, Partying, football, basketball, slacking, sleeping and occasionally other things like sleeping.
Expertise: Software Engineer, in theory. More like guy who fixes things for others. Random intern for some hippy place...
Occupation: Computer related
Industry: Computers (Software)
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  TheFabledJames
Member Since:
12/17/2002
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| Yeah... it's been a while... a long long while....
I do come here every now and then... and debate writing something.... You know maybe something uplifting, something motivational or some small tidbit about my life.
I've just been meh recently... I know meh is not a word, but I also know everyone out there knows exactly how I feel right now.
I however have no one to blame but myself. I get up every morning, I have no desire to discover the cure for cancer. I have no desire to reinvent the wheel, I really have no desire anymore. Life's pretty much kicked my ass at this point. I am sure with enough motivational posters/movies/books/etc I'll finally get the desire to live again. But right now I just wanna veg out in front of a tv and lament.
Bleh... there is another non exsistant word we all can relate to. As i sit here and type, I debate deleting it all. I generally do it 15 times for every post I do pimp out. expecially recently.
Nah I'm not at any form of level where anyone needs to get worried. I'm just not my normal, everyday joking and happy self. We've all been there and it's my time. I know why too, I'm sure everyone knows why. I should be graduated, I should be making some retarded amount of money, I should be developing something exciting. You know, woulda coulda mighta maybe etc. Things I cant control anymore, things I cant do shit about.
Yes yes I know, do something about it james. But it's a lot easier said and done these days. I'ma have to see Balboa and decide old people can still do stuff, lol. I'ma have to figure out the first small step on the road to recovery. I'ma have to figure out what I want to do and how to get there. But not yet, not just yet. I dunno when it will happen, hopefully soon, but until it does, looks like its me and my computer, watching movies and trying to find the motivation to get my life back on track...
until such a time, keep it easy and may your hopes and dreams become a reality...
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It’s been a while…
I’ve been told everyone has a story to tell.
Every person’s life is a story, or a series or stories
strung together. Every person’s life
could be a movie, maybe a bad made for TV one if yours is boring, but a movie
none the less. I always wonder how mine
will write out in the end, if the story will be worth retelling. Will I be an October Sky or a Rudy, or am I
more of a Monte Python and the quest for the Holy Grail. Will I rise up over the constant roadblocks
in my life, or will I be more a comedy of errors.
At first I assumed I would always make it… The world was my
oyster, ripe for the plucking. As time
progresses the world passes me farther and farther behind. My best laid plans constantly sent packing by
people and problems not only unforeseen but at times seemingly insurmountable. I wonder how many more chances I’m going to
get to leave my mark on society in a positive way.
No, no clock tower for me, because while in theory that
would leave a mark, it wouldn’t be one to be known for. It would be a scar more than a mark. I’m also not going to discover the cure for
cancer. Odds are someone has it, and
they are waiting for the market to be better before putting it out there. Drug corporations have to spend a retarded
amount of money discovering the next big cure and seem to think charging
outlandishly high prices is the way to fix it.
I’m not blaming them, I’m not trying to be political, it
just has to be said in explanation before I move on to my next point. Ever make an empty promise you never expected
to keep? Ever said something you didn’t mean? No I don’t mean little white lies like: “No
that outfit doesn’t make you look fat.”
Or my personal favorite: “No I had a good time, I cant wait for the next
family get-together.”
Me… I try to keep my word.
I am not a welcher if I can help it.
If I tell you I’ll help you do something, then by god I’ll help you do
it. It means I don’t give you my word I’ll
do something if I don’t have it. It
means when I say: “Yeah, I’ll come over Tuesday”, then I sure as hell plan on
coming over Tuesday. Now that being said…
I have been known to forget things, important things. So I don’t want it held against me if I said
I would call you in a few days and never did.
If I remember I said I would do it, I’m going to do it, no matter how
little I truly want to.
My odd set of beliefs and moral ground has led me to get
constantly hosed by the world around me.
People know I am a nice guy and use me for their own personal tool. Hey He’ll help me do this; he’ll help you do
that. I have a stockpile of owed favors
most will never let me cash in on.
Well, I’m going to apologize to all of you who get offended… but from
now on you can all take a flying leap off a tall building. Friendship is a two way street. You give, you get, you shouldn’t have to keep
track, but if you don’t ever give, don’t expect to keep someone as a friend.
Maybe most people rely on the kindness of others. Maybe in this dog eat dog world, the nice guy
is now the new doormat. Maybe it’s been
this way from the beginning of time. But
I got two choices, get busy living, or get busy dying. And right now I’m dying, slowly. No real job, no real degree, no health
insurance, no real future. So clearly
this needs to be fixed. I’m taking
suggestions. This is going to sound odd,
but clearly I haven’t been doing anything right as of late. Clearly this is not how I should be living my
life. Clearly I need to accept maybe
others with an outside perspective can shed some new light into a situation
that I myself have clearly been unable to.
So… I’m asking for someone to help me re-right my
story. Help me to keep it from becoming
a tragedy as opposed to a feel good hit of the summer. Most of you have some idea of my current
situation, but if you need a recap, feel free to ask. We’ll see how much better others are at
telling me what to do than I am at figuring it out myself.
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| The other day, some moron who has anonymity and a account on a message board posted something saying Hip Hop is a direct threat to the growth of kids today. He said it should be banned and not allowed to influence kids. This boggled my mind, so I retorted with some of what you will read below. This is all from the hip, so excuse me if this isn't as polished as I prefer... So here we go...
To blame hiphop for what ails the youth of today is like saying spray cans are the reason for the depletion of the ozone layer. Sure, they might have played a part, but the problem is not just on one thing.
We have parents too lazy to deal with tier kids, so they plop them
down in front of tv and send em off to school, hoping someone else will
do all the things they should be doing when it comes to raising their
kids. We got people who wont take responsibility for what's wrong.
Simply put, it's Hip Hop's fault my kid is having sex at the age of 15. No, it's not because you never sat em down and taught em right
from wrong and showed them the consequences of their actions. No, it's not
because you leave them alone at home from 3 to 6 everyday with nothing
to do and no adult supervision. No, it's not because you wont discipline
your kids. It's (Video Games/Music/TV)'s fault.
There are so many things wrong with how parents raise kids now a days, I cant imagine it doesn't have a lot to do with what is wrong. Outside influences do have a say on how your kid grows up, they are influences after all. However they are just influences and there is one group of individuals who influence the way someone comes out more than any other. Thats right boys n girls, the parents do. Other role models have a large say as well, but parents control how well adjusted or unadjusted a kid will be.
In the 80's we
had bad rap music at first, like MC Hammer and Will Smith. Then gangster rap took control for the rest of the
decade. We had 80's hair bands singing about sex and drugs n rock n
roll. My parents however felt the need to beat my ass whenever I was
dumb enough to do something that deserved punishment. Whether it was
getting into fights at school or doing bad things at home. I knew that
if I did something, there would be consequences I didn't like.
Dr. Benjamin Spock said we shouldn't spank our children when they
misbehave because their little personalities would be warped and we
might damage their self-esteem (Dr. Spock's son committed suicide).
People said an expert should know what he's talking about. And people
said OK. Now they're asking themselves why their children have no
conscience, why they don't know right from wrong, and why it doesn't
bother them to kill strangers, their classmates, and themselves.
Is it his fault? No, but he helped. Thats right everyone, not beating your kids is just as bad as taking out ye old belt after they beat up their brother or sister for changing the channel. However, it's not just a lack of discipline that is messing up society as we know it.
I got through fuck the police, I got through straight outta compton, 2
live crew didn't destroy my childhood. I got through the 80's the 90's
and the 2000's so far just fine. I am not warped, maladjusted or unable
to see the difference between right and wrong.
What is amazing is when you watch a tv show like leave it to beaver, you think it's a tv show and no one acted like that. Well people did. Thats right, we didn't all lock our doors at night. When the neighborhood bully took Billy's bike, Billy's dad called his dad and the bully caught a hell of beating from his father. Everyone knew everyone else on the block. Now, no one speaks to each other, if there is a problem, the police have to settle it, not the people involved. We are moving away from the whole concept of a friendly mentality into one of "trust no one".
We glorify everything thats wrong with out society. Soap Opera's are all about glorifying some of the worst problems in society today. Yet no one complains about how much they warp the nature of young girls into believe it's ok to have random sex whenever they want with whomever they want.. No one talks about how bad country music is. Sure, they have good songs supporting america, but have a ton of songs about drinking and how much they prefer (Fishing/Getting Drunk/Their Truck) to a woman. Nowadays the major difference between rap music and country is the people listening to it more than anything else.
Yet somehow this is still all hip hop's fault. Thats right, it's more hip hop's fault than anything else I have mentioned. Or so people would have you believe. Yet i believe something else, and that is: This isn't hip hops
fault, this society has been fucking up well before someone like 50 cent ever
got a voice. Saying anything to the contrary is narrow minded and
equally as stupid.
Take it easy people.
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| I always wondered how someone can get a fanatical devotion to a sports team. You can root for em, you can feel the joys and sorrows of being a sports fan, but there is a level of fanatic I wonder about. One that usually scares me greatly.
Yet this season, I cant help but a get a little fanatical about the sabres. it wasnt just the big playoff run this year. It wasnt the fact they had a great regular season. It's happened in the past and I havent ever been this way about em. it's the team itself. A bucnh of guys everyone had written off at the beginning of the saeason who just refusaed to quit, refused to listen to the naysayers.
When someone got hurt you would hear "Well that should be it, now they crumble." When something bad happened Barry Melrose was a big fan of writing the team off, but instead of giving up, they tried even harder.
There is something awe-inspiring about a team with nothing left to give diving to block 90 mile an hour slap shots, kicking and scratching thier way into games they have no business being in. There is something in this that suddenly puts you in a mood to feel as if it's your team, as if you are a piece of them and they are now a piece of you.
This has probably been one of my most enjoyable years of hockey ever. After a 2 year layoff and the fact most of america doesnt watch and doesnt appreciate it, it makes it even more amazing how much the people who play this game fight tooth and nail for it. And it shows me somthing. We all need to be like these people.
You have something you care about, something you want, dont sit back and let it happen, fight for it. Dont accept defeat, fight even harder for it. Dont give up and go home, make sure that you leave everything you have out there on the Ice as opposed to wondering what woulda happened if only things had been different. It's funny how easy it is to say and how hard it is to do, until you watch a team do it and show you the way.
Cheers to the sabres, the sabre fans and I just cant wait til next year. | | |
| Ok... I'll keep the serious entries to a minimum, lol...
So I watched TUF 3 last night, and I guess the best way to describe it was... Lets take out everything that guys love, and put in everything they hate. What we need here, is a little more drama and less fighting. LOL... Serisouly, I wont get into too many details for those who went through it, but the whole point of the show is to watch guys train and fight, and they took out most of that, bastards. Shamrock is off his rocker, his team pays for it, and now to make things interesting, they made some guy feel bad enough to elave the show, to help out shamrocks squad, lol.
So hopefully in about 3 more weeks, I should have my car insured and on the road, o dare to dream... No this does not mean I will be making road trips to NYC to visit the Erin/Jen/Chris crew, o no.. I t means I can go over ot krols and kick his ass as he much needs it, or so denz tells me, lol...
I'm going to be a little scattered today as I get some random shit down... But I think women have figured out the ideal form of torture... No it's not country music singing when hammered, although it's close. It's not marriage, although one would argue that is one of the nine levels of hell. It's this whole having to talk thing, lol. You mad at your man? Well have a conversation about "feelings" and how you want to know what he is thinking.
Seriously, I cant think of anthing that would be worse. Multiple women having a conversation when you are in the room or going shopping with a woman would be close, but this conversation is 10 times worse. Coyote ugly is when a man would willing chew his arm off in the morning to escape a woman. This is worse, men would gladly kill ourselves rather than have these conversations with women. They never go well, you always end up in the shithouse and it would be less painful and safer to open up your skull and scrape your brain with a dull knife.
Krol and Denz are laughing hysterically and debating if they can give me 20 eprops each for saying it. but I felt you women should be warned the amount of horror you cause whenever you say this.
Please, think of the (future) children....
LOL... Have a good one all...
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